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Chromosome favorites

As you know, in many cultures, the y chromosome is mega important and often favored, even in this day and age. Sad but true. But I have to say, I’m thankful for my baby’s x chromosomes. I really am. Thank God for my baby girl. At 7, she is fierce and unapologetic for wanting to play with “boys’ toys”. I grew up with my sister and our parents loved us and never gave us any qualms about being females AND we’re Asian! Granted, being sandwiched between both Chinese and American cultures was a bit latently stressful, but never did my sister and I wish we were born with the y chromosome. We were pretty happy kids. That’s not to say, OTHER Asian people didn’t giving my parents shit about having only two girls and no boys, but whatever, what can we do about people talking.

While it is common in many Asian cultures, I was shocked to hear my fellow lab partner tell me that her Italian family also plays favorites on the y chromosome. Hmm, interesting. The verbatim of T, “My brother could light me on fire and my mom would laugh it off…” It seems like a harmless statement, and maybe even silly to imagine, but the intensity behind that simple statement is pretty strong. Now, I don’t know T very well, she’s my senior RA but from what little time I got to spend with her, she is one fierce little firecracker, she is independent, intelligent, and very assertive. Not to mention, she is uber sweet and beautiful. So, I’m not getting the “I’m bitter” vibe at all, she was just making an honest statement.

So it makes me look at M. I’m Chinese and J is Italian and Irish. J and I never, EVER conveyed to her that she must like dolls and dresses. We are super proud of our little firecracker and her Ninjago & Transformer playing self. I look at her and I thank God for her, others may play favorites or make fun but I really hope she never lose her confidence and fierceness. It makes me incredibly sad to hear stories or witness events where girls were outcasted and boys are favored. It happens more often than we realize.

M was so excited when I found a Transformer raincoat for her at the thrift store last week. The thing is cheap plastic and only cost $4 but she treated it like it was the golden cup. Today, since it wasn’t a million degrees, and it was raining, she ran back upstairs to grab it, so she can wear it to dinner. It made me smile. My girl doesn’t give a fuck what others think…but it scared me also. I don’t want her to lose that, ever. I don’t want her to ever feel pressured to conform to social…pressures.

As a mom, of course, I want so many things for my daughter. I want her to be healthy, happy, compassionate, I want her to want to learn a million things, to ask a million questions and challenge the answers if she feels it’s not adequate, I want her to have confidence and high self esteem. How do I do it? How do I help her become this positive person? We’re all human, we all go through different experience, cope with things differently, and have our own perspectives. How do I make sure, my little girl never becomes bitter, never have low self-esteem or become cynical? Low self-esteem and bitterness breaks my heart. Not to ramble or go off topic, but a professor once told me, (I’m paraphrasing here, it’s been some years) in today’s society, the motto is – my toothache is more important than your cancer. I was blown away when she said that and I doubt that I will ever forget that statement. Because it’s the truth. So how do I help a little girl be compassionate and caring yet still be equally confident and assertive.

I don’t know, I know I’m rambling…I might be going through a midlife crisis or something. Maybe I should change my major and go into philosophy. Instead of psychoanalyzing events, I should just accept it as truth. I’m just uber proud of my little girl. She really is the center of my universe. She is not perfect, far from it. She gets my goat (LOL – J & I LOVE finding old and odd phrases) and drives me bonkers sometimes…but she’s mine. She is compassionate, intelligent, and damn does that girl have a great sense of humor (I swear, she’s a carbon copy of me). And I hope she never lose any of those awesome traits. Peace, love, and happiness to you.

Autobots, roll out!

Autobots, roll out!

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Vomits at the racetrack, giraffe feeding, and some great news.

When my sister and I were growing up, our parents would take us to Belmont Racetrack almost every Sunday during the summer. Since my SIL interns there, we decided to take M so she can get sort of an inside scoop of the place. It was a ton of fun. She got to go the the press-box, in the paddocks where the horses were prepped for the races, she had a blast. But before she got to do all that, she was hungry and ate a greasy pepperoni pizza at their concession stand, plus the heat and humidity AND the excitement, she was just on overdrive…so when SIL took her to the paddocks to look at the horses and then I get a text asking me to meet her downstairs because she threw up. Yes, threw up, everything she ate.
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Pre-vomit shot. She was so excited to be here!

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Post-vomit and $20 lighter (for that foxy looking t-shirt) shot. She was still as excited to be here! After the whole vomit ordeal, she was totally fine, as of nothing happened.That’s my girl. And no, we didn’t win a thing…but it was a fun experience, vomit and all.

We spent our 4th of July in Baltimore. We love Baltimore, it’s a great place for kiddos and it’s not too far from us. J took Friday off and we headed down Wednesday afternoon. During the 2.5 hour drive, all we did was LAUGH, OMG – if you can hear our conversations, we would probably burn in Hell for all eternity but you know what, laughing beats the shit out of crying. We will laugh over anything, any day.

We had a mega fun time. M got to feed a giraffe! What a neat idea! We were bummed when we got to the exhibit and the zookeeper told us, they can only sell us the leaves to feed IF they were in the feeding area…and of course, no giraffes were in sight. So we walked around and came back, and viola – the hungry giraffe was there! Woo hoo! We happily paid our $2. for a sprig of what looks like eucalyptus leaf and she was a happy camper!

Feeding the giraffe was SO fun!

Feeding the giraffe was SO fun!

Best $2 spent during the whole trip. We also went to the aquarium and I have to say, for the amount we paid, it was really meh. Adventure Aquarium by us is better, M can pet baby sand sharks, and sting rays at our aquarium. This one was behemoth, but just not a lot of hands on exhibits. But it was an experience we had to try. During our final day, we went to the Walters Art Museum. By far, one of the best art museums, ever! We really enjoyed it. The art were amazing, M loved the Egyptian exhibit as usual (she is infatuated with mummification…don’t ask)…and I loved their Medieval World exhibit (all the Romanesque and Gothic art). It was just an amazing visit.

AND, I’d like to end this post on a good note. Last week, I went with my dad to Mt. Sinai for his follow up. I was really nervous about this visit because the last time he went in for the chest CT and liver MRI, they scared the shit out of us. They literally ordered his meds to “keep him comfortable”, basically, the death sentence. Of course, they made a mistake and after further examination, they said there were no tumors and the spot was in fact a small clot and residual from the RFA. So, I felt like, wow – we were blessed with such wonderful news, this time around, we must not be so lucky. I was a damned nervous wreck. As they did the MRI, the technician asked me to stay with her so I can talk my dad through the procedure in the machine (that MRI machine is a miracle of science!) and I was beyond tempted to ask her, do we see anything on the liver? But my better judgement told me that, she may not be correct in her reading. Why stress over it. So I kept my mouth shut and waited the 3 hours until seeing Dr. S. When we walked in, we see two other doctors in the office and of course, my heart drops. I’ve been to a few appointments with my dad, but I’ve never gone with him to see the oncologist. It was either my mom or my sister who brought him before. I’ve spoken with Dr. S. plenty of times but this was our first meeting. So, me being the ever pessimist, the first thing I say is, Should I be nervous? And suave as he is, Dr. S. says, No, why should you be? He proceeds to tell us to sit down and he turns to my dad and in very plain mandarin (I shouldn’t be shocked that he speaks Mandarin, his wife is Asian), that the scans were good, all is well. My dad was so nervous, he didn’t hear him! I had to ask Dr. S. (sadly, in English because I don’t speak Mandarin), So….everything is ok? Yes! All is well, and he is just like the last time, no new growth and in fact, the spot we suspected last time was truly just a clot. He is still on the transplant list.

We talked for a few more minutes and when he asked the famous, do you have any other questions for me, I wanted to say, you gave us great news, I have no questions. But I remembered my manners and politely thanked him for his time and went on our way.

SO, there you have it. The good news is my dad is tumor free, thank God. We will head back there in three months for another scan. As much as we hold our breaths each time, we can’t let it hinder our lives. We have to shift it to the back burner and just be happy and positive. We continue to pray and thank God for all we have been blessed with.

Ok, I will get off my holy pew now. I’ve been slacking on the blogging…but it’s just been mega busy with the research lab and working part time for the Alumnae project. But, it’ll give me the experience I need for grad school…I hope. Until soon, peace, love, and happiness to ya!

Welcome to summer!

Well, last Tuesday, M finished first grade! FIRST GRADE! Next, she’ll be going into grad school, stop the madness! I know this is so cliche, but where did the time go? My baby is such a big girl now, still a pain in my tookus as usual, but my baby girl nonetheless.

Nothing new to report…I guess no news is always good news, especially for my dad’s end. He goes to see Dr. S, his oncologist mid July and I’ll go with him to this one. I’m not sure if I can handle it, but I have to pull up my big girl undie-pants and just GO. He will get his MRI and a CT scan w/out contrast to see if any of the tumors came back to his liver. I continue to pray, that’s pretty much all I can do at this point. He is happy, seemingly healthy, and in good spirits…what more can we ask for?

Cancer really does suck. Mirt’s close friend has breast cancer and she’s been fighting it for a few months now. She’s doing chemo and radiation, and hopefully she’ll surpass this tough time in her life. Her coworkers at the Sheriff’s office held a fundraiser in her honor on Friday and we were lucky enough to go. We had a great time and Myra looked amazing, she is one tough cookie. When her sister gave the speech, I couldn’t hold it in anymore, even though we are not close friends, to see another woman, another human being suffer and go through this is heart breaking. I pray she overcomes this hurdle, I want to tell her so much that she doesn’t have to be strong all the time, that it is ok and even important to fall apart sometimes…but I don’t know her that well, so I don’t want to overstep the boundries. I can only support her and pray for her and her family.

On a lighter note, a friend of mine from Manchester came to NYC for her second visit this past week. While I’ve never met her in real life – I met her online through the magic of our common denominator, romance novels – it was AWESOME to finally meet in person. As M & I were heading out to the city to meet them, she asked me, “How did you meet her?” SIGH…here comes the sticky conversation. How do I tell a 7 yr. old that I met this stranger online and now we are going to meet in person?! Tread carefully…

I told her the truth, that we met online because we started talking about books and ended up loving the same books…and that it is ok to meet her because, one – I am an adult, and two, we are meeting in the middle of the busiest damn street in all of the small island of Manhattan. But for good measures, I told her sternly, but you don’t ever do this! She laughs…

I met Suz and her awesome sister. We went to Central Park Zoo and then to Wholefoods for lunch, J met up with us after lunch and drove us back to their hotel.  It was a zillion degrees on Saturday, I took the to the zoo via the train but we hopped in a f’ing cab going from the zoo to 96th because I was NOT going to trek back down into the hellholes of the city to catch the train. And you know, between the 4 of us, it was only $2.50 more! It cost me a $10 MetroCard and a LOT of sweat to schelp us in the f’ing heat from 42nd to 59th! After the zoo we were just famished, so I stopped the next cab and we all packed ourselves in, I didn’t care if it cost $30, I was not getting on the train and f’ing transferring! Hell no. BUT, my beautiful UK girls got to go on the subway, see an awesome little zoo, eat yummo foods at Wholefoods AND Mister Softee and ride the NYC crazy cabs all in one day. Who says I’m not a good hostest/tour guide?! Hmph!

I love Central Park Zoo!

I love Central Park Zoo!

This poor, miserable Polar Bear. It must have been 95 degrees and he just looks sad. It broke my heart to see him so sad…gives me mixed feelings about zoos and aquariums…

When we went back to her hotel, Suz gave me a bag of goodies, I swear, M & I are SOOO uber spoiled. My friend (another online friend, mind you) from Ireland sends us packages filled with goodies and now Suz schlepped from the UK a big ol’ bag of goodies for all of us! I am one blessed girl. It was an awesome weekend, but we were famished.

Since summer has started, I did get to read A TON! I don’t get to write reviews for each one, but I do read and rate them on GoodReads. And I have to say, I’ve been pretty darn lucky because I’ve read some great ones so far! I have to add a couple to my TBR list because Suz recommended a few to me during out visit, so I will be reading a whole lot more, woo hoo!

I did recently finish a book that was sent to me, it was a beautiful story, it’s not smut, lol – it’s a beautiful romance and I thoroughly enjoyed it!

Beside Your HeartBeside Your Heart by Mary Whitney

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I read this in a matter of hours, I couldn’t put it down! What is it about UK boys that always grab my attention (and my heart)?! Beside Your Heart was so well written, and the story was so…REAL, that it wiggled its way into my heart and staked a claim. Because it shares with us their teenage years, I was worried I wouldn’t like it, but their dialog, the events, and their heart wrenching realities made it such an amazing story that I forget they were in high school! I always say it, but I LOVE when a book can make my heart squeeze and gives me that – annoying lump in my throat threatening to start crying – feeling and Beside Your Heart definitely evoked them.

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Good times!

We finally got to see the Mendez family. It has been quite some time, since August 2012 to be exact. The last time we hung out, I believe was when we took our Reda/Mendez mini-vacation to Niagara Falls, Canada. It was a ton of fun but you can only stare at water for so long.

With all of our busy schedules, we had not seen each other since! It’s a bummer because so much has happened in between for both of our families and even though we keep in constant contact via texts, it’s just not the same, you know? So today, after she finished teaching her semester and I’m done with my semester, we finally met up.

It was SO much fun. Even though we didn’t do anything spectacular, but the boys got to do their short bromance thing and went to get some Blue Moons and lunch for us, while K & M played like not a day has passed between them, and S & I got to chat and catch up. After lunch, we all got to sit and reminesed on HOW we met. S & I actually met online in a mommy chat room. Odd, I know. But we bonded and we took our chats out of the chatroom/boards and we clicked so well. That was many moons ago. So I always have the story of “I met my best friend online!”, then we blindly flew out to Vegas w/ M when she was nine months old to meet them in a ‘mutual meeting place’. Afterwards, we took turns visiting…well, M & I flew to Cali once to visit with them, but they came out to the east coast a few times…eventually, they just moved here! Awesome!

But it was really awesome to catch up, they’re amazing people and what I love is that, even though we haven’t seen each other for so many months, we just picked up where we left off and it’s as if no time has passed. And the kids LOVED it so much, it was bittersweet to hear them giggling and laughing hysterically. They’ve essentially known each other while in utero, so for 8 years, they been buds! And now, they’re almost 8 years old!!! While it was sweet to hear them laugh – it made me a little sad that they’re ALMOST teenagers, eventually they’re not going to want to hang out w/ us…where has the time gone?!?! Both K & Maddy are only’s, so they get along so well, and since they’ve been playing with each other since they were 9/10 months old (when we first met in Vegas), we always joke that they were betrothed before they could walk. Now…watching them play and whispering to each other, I can’t help but giggle. I’m looking forward to seeing them again real soon! My two Kiddos today.

Book club meeting tomorrow!!! And I can’t f’ing wait. I’m most looking forward to this meeting because we get to gab over my MMA fighters in Lori Foster’s series. Oh man, I can’t wait. I did finish another quick book to pass time between the meetings, it was actually pretty good.

Stranded with a Billionaire (Billionaire Boys Club, #1)Stranded with a Billionaire by Jessica Clare

My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I had this in my TBR for a while and kept putting it off, the title didn’t wow me very much. I feel like it was another – filthy rich guy falls to his knees in love with a relatively normal girl – title. But I did end up reading through the night and finished it in a day. It was a nice read. The story started out pretty adventurous while they were stranded, it gave him (Logan) the opportunity to be a carefree, “normal” guy, and they had their share of snarky introductions. I did LOVE all the philosophy quotes she (Bronte) shared, it made their interaction so much more fun and sweet. There were a few parts that I wanted to yell into my Kindle – some infuriating parts by both Bronte and Logan, but I’ll leave them out for the sake of no spoilers. I do wish they had a little bit more angst, but I did get a little bit of the achy heart – lump in my throat feeling, which I love so much in a good book. Overall, it was a nice quick read, well written, yummy love scenes, funny banters, and beautiful philosophy quotes. I would definitely read her next story of the Billionaire Boys Club.

OOH, I’m not sure if I mentioned it before, but I was accepted to join a research lab at school. I was SOOOO mega thrilled and it’s an amazing study. It is for youth depression and I am really excited to be a part of this research! I did another test run on a lab assessment today. As a junior RA, I had to do a phone interview for an assessment and it went pretty well. This was my second test run, the first one was with a fellow junior RA, this time it was with a senior RA and I was still so nervous. But I was really, REALLY glad I got this senior RA because she’s totally awesome and I was hoping for some honest critiques and she did give them to me. I wanted to really learn how to conduct an interview/assessment, so I was thankful that I was paired with her. She was totally awesome and gave me some great pointers. I’m sure I’ll still be just as nervous the next time around, when I really have to conduct the interview/assessment with participants but now I have a little more experience. But I am glad it is done with, I was so nervous! I had a short interview (questionnaire) with another set of participants and that went smoothly, another rescheduled one me until next Tuesday so we’ll see how that goes. I hope it’s just as smooth as the first one!

Ok – time for me to go sneak in some more reading before bed. Peace and love! xoxo

Last day of class for the semester, yay!

So today was my last class for the semester, woo hoo! But I have three finals and a paper for next week, so I’m not in free agent mode yet. I’m excited and nervous, all in one. I’m excited because I’m done for the semester – no more tests, no more papers, no more schlepping my tired butt to class every day. I’ll still have to get up ‘normal’ time to drop off M at school, but afterwards, I can come home and sleep! Shhh, don’t tell her though. And, I’m nervous because, I have had my bouts of depression and when I’m…stagnant, my depression kicks in. And once I’m in that funk, it’s pretty darn difficult to shake. As I’ve told my therapist, I refuse to go back on meds. It took me a long time to shed the meds, and I refuse to go back on. I’ve been free of meds for two years? I don’t even remember! So, anyhow, I have to try and stay active and busy. As much as I complain about school, it keeps me occupied. We’ll see…my famous words…we’ll see.

On Saturday, Jay had to work, so I took M to run some errands. I tried to make it as fun as possible, I had to run to school to return a text book so I told her she can feed the geese/ducks by the pond. Well, sadly – when we got there, there was a big ol’ sign that says DO NOT FEED THE WILDLIFE. Damn it! M didn’t care actually, she brought her little video camera with her and filmed a lot of stuff. There were two ducks at the pond that kept following her, so she got a few shots of them.

My future film maker.

My future film maker.

Since she LOVED her video camera and was filming everything, all day, I wanted to give her my old Flip. But since I hadn’t used it in so long, the internal battery died. I charged it all day but nothing happened, so Jay said it must be the internal battery…and since Flip doesn’t make them anymore – there’s nothing I can do. It’s just garbage at this point. That sucks!

I have another little Sony video but I need a damn Sony memory card so we’ll work on that next. But she had SO much fun. She kept “directing” me, telling me where to stand so she can get a shot with the scene behind me.

She had a fun day, it was perfect weather, too. I know, to a lot of people, this is boring stuff…but hey, I’m a mom – AND – the blog is for my Maddy! 😉

On Sunday, we went to visit her Girls Scout Camp during their open house. I have to tell you, I’ve never been to camp. Growing up in NY with my family, we didn’t do any of these extra curricular activities. Pffft, Tae Kwon Do? Yoga? Girls Scout? Camp?! I don’t think so. Well, I was a bit shell shocked. This is really like camping style camp. Make fun all you want but it wasn’t until recently that I understood how big an acre is…(for those of you who don’t know, it is about 43,500 square feet, give or take a few feet – square footage, I understand…acres, not so much). ANYWAY, the camp leader told us “This building here is the only one with indoor plumbing so everyone loves this building, but it’s for junior scouts…” Excuse me? You know what my next question is…”Sooo…where do they pee?! They’re here all day!” She calmly told me they’ll use Port-A-Potties or latrines. But Port-A-Potties are better.” OMG. Strike one. As we stroll through beautiful green fields and trees, I ask, “This may sound silly, but ummm…do you guys have ticks here?” Again, calmly she tells me, “Mmmm…sort of. Last year, I only found two ticks on me and I was here for five weeks.” WTF. Strike two.

Ok, so maybe Girls Scout camp isn’t for M. Jay’s right, maybe she should do a swim camp at the gym we go to, or something…anything besides this. Sigh, but I can’t shelter her, right? I mean, if she doesn’t get exposed to this camp stuff, she’ll send up like Jay & I…clueless w/ nature. So…expose her to 120 acres of trees and outdoorsy greens, and ticks and possibly lyme disease and peeing in latrines, or shelter her and keep her in a bubble. Hmmm….

When we left, she adored the camp, she was looking forward to it. I give her two days max before she comes crawling out of the woods with twigs in her hair and dirt under her nails screaming she hates camp. We’ll see. I hope she enjoys it though. She does get to swim everyday and go boating, AND she’s VERY excited for archery. Step aside, Katniss Everdeen…

Ok, my allergies are kicking my butt, my head is going to explode so I’m off to bed. More soon! Hey, I’m getting better at this blog thing…now I just need to figure out the rest of the stuff.

Me & my Maddy

Me & my Maddy

Peace, love, and happiness to you!

What is that itch?

As we come closer to the end of the semester, I am itching, just itching for something…what it is, I’m not quite sure. A drink? A getaway? A long slumber? No clue. My brain has been racing all over the place, and I cannot wait for the my last class to end on Monday. Then finals will begin the following week, but it’s ok – it’s gotta be done! I want to not have to study or read papers or do quizzes…I want to do nothing but sit in my jammies and read all day. BUT…let’s be realistic here…that will not happen. I still have to get up my normal time to drop M off at school, run my errands/appointments, clean the darn house and take care of the laundry…and I have to go in for my RA lab work on campus. SO…I may get to read a little bit more, but not as much as I would like. Ah well…still nice to have a break. OOH, and I have to study for my GRE. Yay.

I did go see my neuropsych professor during her office hours…not to ask a question about the material, but to discuss my grade. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this class and I adore this professor, she is a genius, cuts to the chase, and pretty funny, too. So…fingers crossed that I do well on my final, so that I can bring my grade up a smidgen.

I did finally finish reading Walking Disaster. At Tricky Tray last week, I was talking to a friend of mine and (we love all the same books) when I brought up the topic, she & I were giggle like little girls. Good God, people thought we won a prize we were squee’ing and giggle so much. But we both loved it. Being able to see Travis’s POV was awesome and brought some closure to some feelings we had. AND the epilogue was AMAZING! For the rest of Tricky Tray, we just talked about books and had an idea to start a local book club within our group. We’ll see how it goes. I’m all for it!

We did Rutgers’ Day last weekend and M had a blast! We went with her friend from school and her mom & baby brother. We got there early enough were parking wasn’t an issue, Erinn drove because I hate driving in crowds and squeezing into parking spots, but luckily – Erinn found us a pretty sweet spot. The kiddos got to feed two baby sheep, which of course were not hungry by the time it was their turn. The M & Bridget insisted they go into the cage with the wolves…who are we to argue. So, we let them go. The girls LOVED the wolves, they got to pet them and talk to them, even met a pup. It was a $3 donation to go in to the cage with the wolves (there were handlers in there, don’t worry, we got this…) and they freakin’ LOVED every minute – did not want to come out!

M & Brady did a clementine eating contest. Granted, he’s only 3 and M is 7, so Erinn had to step in and even out the odds. She helped peel his clementine and may or may not have shoved some wads of clemintines in his mouth…I can’t say…I don’t have proof. But Brady won! And he was SO proud, he finished and threw his hands up in the air just like the young lady told him to do before the contest. He won a little lunch bag and for the rest of the day, he carried that bag like it was his golden trophy, he was SOOO cute!

Bridget wanted to see the horse on the treadmill so we waited around and I have to say, it was pretty f’ing awesome! I haven’t synced my phone yet but once I do, I’ll add it here but WOW, the horse wanted to run and when she finally did get up to a fully gallop, it was SO NEAT! Seeing the horse run on the treadmill was probably the highlight of the event. By the end of the show, we were famished…so we walked around a little bit more and went to an early dinner at The Rainforest Cafe. The kiddos had a fun filled day, which was nice. I love seeing M so happy and carefree – I feel bad sometimes because on most weekdays after school, we’re doing homework and that’s all. When she asks me to play with her, most of the time – I can’t because I have to get this paper out or I have to study or I have to get dinner ready…it’s always something. So on weekends, we try so hard to have fun and play. I don’t want her to grow up so fast that when I’m ready to play with her, she’s out the door on a date with her boyfriend or something. Thinking of that makes me sad…

Ok, enough of that! I’m off to bed – I’m exhausted. These allergies are killing me. Coffee, Zyrtec, and Advil is my daily breakfast nowadays. Breakfast of champions! I will post some pics and the horse video soon.

Peace, love, and happiness to you!

xoxo

Tau Sigma, and prepping for finals, and tricky tray, oh my!

I’m so damn proud of myself, it’s only been FOUR, count them FOUR days since my last blog…woohoo! That’s a record, I believe. So, a quick blurb about me: I am a mom, check. I am a wife, check. And, I am a student, check. As much as I love my many hats, there are a few  many days where I feel utterly defeated and useless. While I wear these hats proudly, I am damn tired. I am always on the run, always need to be somewhere at sometime doing something.

But there are rare moments when I am forced to stop and realize, how amazing my life is. I know everyone has problems, as we all have our daily stressors and even huge life changing events…we ALL have them. I whine about being tired and whine about not having enough time, and I whine about being either a shitty mom, wife, or student. Well…yesterday evening, I was reminded that while I juggle these crazy tasks, it is not all in vain. A few months ago, I was invited to join Tau Sigma for SAS at Rutgers. I didn’t think much of it, of course when I Googled it, there’s a bunch of random information and some even saying it’s a scam (eek!). But I joined anyway, I figured at this point, I can use anything I can to help improve my CV. Then last night, I went to the induction. It was actually, quite fun. I was allowed to bring two guests, of course, I brought my two rocks…J & M. M, as usual was the youngest attendee at any of these Rutgers functions. She dressed up, and sat like a lady. I was so proud of my baby, as she was proud of me for being an inductee. I didn’t know how to explain Tau Sigma to M, being 7 years old, honor societies are as confusing as the Greek letters they display. So my short and sweet explanation? “They’re giving mommy an award certificate for being so damn awesome in school.” Short and sweet, right? She got it, and was mega proud, and was happily eating her plate of cheese and fruit. But it was this event that made me realize, I can do this. If I just stop fucking around and get my priorities straight, I wouldn’t feel so overwhelmed, perhaps…and I can focus more and it wouldn’t be so hard. I complain it’s hard because I am just spread thin, but last night, the ceremony made me see, if I could walk away on my first transfer semester with a 3.75 GPA with all the craziness I had going on, I can continue to strive for better IF I get my shit together. Sigh…easier said than done, but I will continue to try. So, last night was nice, it was a nice “stop and smell the roses” sort of moment. Then, we invited my parents out to dinner with us, which is always a nice bonus (no cooking!).

I have about another week of classes and I’ll be done with this semester. This was a rough one, I don’t know if it’s the heavy load of psych classes or the nicer weather making me antsy but I am jones’ing to be done. I have finals in two weeks so wish me luck. I’m not a good test taker, so my anxiety level will be through the roof…yay.

Jay has been helping me with the Tricky Tray program for M’s school. He’s been awesome, it’s not easy and he just took it over like a champ! Even picked up all 400 printed programs for me…all I had to do was deliver it this morning to her school (which nearly strained my muscle! FOUR HUNDRED 30 sheet programs are not light) – but M did help me carry a few along the way. My baby and her helpful ways. But Tricky Tray is tonight and I’ve never attended one. I volunteered last year to help for an hour and then I left afterwards. This year, I’m going to do my hour of selling raffle tickets and actually staying to enjoy the fun. So, I’m excited! I hope I get to win a goody, we received some GREAT prize donations this year and I can’t wait to see who wins what! How fun!!!

I’m off…again…have to get some errands done before picking up M from Odyssey Club, dropping her off at my parents then getting ready for Tricky Tray tonight!

Peace, love, and happiness to you!

Ok, ok, we’re back…

Well as you can see, I am still a terrible blogger as ever.  It is now the end of February 2011 and I guess I’ve missed a couple of posts.  Let’s see…

We celebrate Christmas and it was awesome fun.  Not as stressful as the usual years, I guess planning ahead does pay off.  We had our New Year’s Eve dinner at Rat’s at Ground for Sculpture and discovered that M loves dinning there only because the gentleman called her “miss” and pulled out her chair for her…J and I did enjoy the food though!  I started my spring semester in January, we celebrated Chinese New Year, and last week, we threw my sister K at surprise 30th birthday party.  It was fun to be had by everyone and a great 2011 so far…

Great news to be shared: I want to welcome Baby Teague, my separated at birth sister (of course, not literal, but it is uncanny how similar we are in our ways!) Lyssa had her 2nd beautiful baby boy…I’m sure you will see tons of photos of Teague & Quinn posted here real soon (once I get the hang of posting pix!) and congratulations all the moms out there with their sweet little babies (too many to list!)…there is a baby boom going around!  I also want to add congratulations to another BFF, Wardha for their awesome news of preggo-ness!  Yay!!  My other BFF – Sherry is almost done with Grad school (yay!) and will be visiting back home (Cali) in a few days, so we are quite excited for her.  I am now med-free, as some of you know, I was on anti-depressants for a little less than a year, at times with heavy dosages.  I am now happy to say, I am Prozac free for about 2 months and I am totally fine.  I do continue my talk therapy every three weeks or so, but that it just for me to vent and for me, as a prevention to going back on the meds.  Lastly, I’m sure I can go on and on since I’ve have not blogged in a while – yesterday, after mass I bumped into an long time old friend of mine…from Junior High School!  Can you believe it?  What is even more unbelievable is that, it was not like we stayed in our JHS neighborhood, our school was in another state, so after 20 years since JHS in NY, we ended up in the same town, same church, same school for the kiddos, and attending the same mass!  I just thought it was amazing…small world we live in, huh?  It was great to see him and meet his beautiful family!

I will try to do a ‘Great news to be shared’ often, because I think (inspired by my professor – at the begining of each class, we are to say one thing that is going well in our lives – it’s pretty neat to take a moment and find that one small thing), we don’t get to appreciate the little things that often and it’s the little things that we should be thankful for.  Until next time…xoxo